Since I was diagnosed, I feel like my life has been out of my control. Cancer took my uterus, ovaries and cervix, so I had no choice there. We only have one oncology gynecologist in our insurance network (not that I am complaining, I adore my doctor and could not be more pleased with him, just had no choice). The insurance company could not be convinced to cover the research trial for my after surgery treatments, so I had to go off trial for those. (In a previous post I detailed how I researched my options and finally decided to go with the trial.) The chemo therapy is going to take my hair, but that won’t happen for a few months because I have to go through radiation first.
So now, I am the master of my scalp. I all but shaved my head tonight. I will not let my cancer or my resulting treatments TAKE anything else from me. I decided when I would lose my hair. There isn’t much else that I get to decide regarding my cancer or my treatments. The doctors decide what course the treatments will take from here on out. My only decision will be morning or afternoon appointments. So I took control of my hair destiny. I wish I could say that this was the result of some radical thinking or revolutionary thought process on my part, but it is not. Much of literature I have read on coping with cancer and side effects for various treatments suggests that the patient shave their head so they can control when they lose their hair. So I got the idea there.
I am not so much concerned with losing my hair, it will grow back eventually. The loss of the rest of my body hair during treatment just seems like a bonus to me. I am a little worried about losing my eye lashes though. I figure if I lose hair from any body part I can shave it won’t be too odd, it will just take a little getting used to. But eyelashes? Eesh.
I have an appointment next week for a baseline CT scan. Then I will see a radiologist for one of several sessions where I am positioned and readied for the radiation treatments. This will be the external radiation treatments. These will be once a day, five days a week for five weeks. The next three weeks I have internal radiation treatment once or twice a week. I will get a two or three week rest period with no radiation, then I will start the chemo.